Many great points in this thread!
This is an interesting take as I am now wondering why you would think that playing your music live to an audience is masturbatory? And wether any live performance is an act of self agrandisation. Because for me, when I get to see an artist I like live, I go there because I want to immerse myself in this artist’s music for an hour and a half, and only his, because I love his music and I’d be disappointed if he played anyone else’s. So a live performance HAS to be masturbatory, and a DJ playing music he likes to a crowd can be considered a very selfish act too from the same point of view. It could be “I know all this great music and I want to share” but also “I have the best taste in music, and you’re all going to dance to what I like!”
Anyway, you created, produced, arranged this music, it’s work, you believe it’s good, and playing it live is a way for you to display it to the world in very specific conditions, but also the ultimate test in a certain way. It’s a very selfish act, but also very humble, like “here’s what I do, hope you like it?”
For a long time it’s been the only way to share your own music and try to get it into the ears of people who might like, and I think it’s the best way for you to build an audience who might want to come back to see you because they like your music. It’s the best way to kickstart this vertuous circle.
I’ve kind of embraced the semi-live/semi-DJ way of doing things, I’ve split my songs into tracks, build some intro and outro loops but have my whole main arrangements intact in the middle. Of course I can cut things and send to effects, but I also want to showcase all the work I’ve done in the studio. So there are parts where I need to work to get things to move on, and there are other parts where I can sit back and let the song happen, but soon enough I have to work again. Because I think there should be some work on the stage, but I also think a lot of has already been done in the studio, and you don’t want to ruin it live either.
Just my point of view.
And with a few examples of how I would play if I could