Unfortunately, that seems to be one of the most effective treatments, at least in terms of keeping people under control.
I do really miss the highs, they were fucking magic, but I was a fucking tornado, pure destruction, then nothing but self loathing left at the end of it.
I really wanted to avoid meds and doctors and all that shit and I’ve got away with it so far, but it’s pretty fucking tiring having to almost be a third person inside my own head keeping a lid on myself.
Thanks for taking the time to share such valuable insight.
As far as the collab goes, keep an eye on your inbox this weekend…
just wanted to let you know that you touched me on the swimsuit area of my heart.
I can only imagine. I have a hard enough time telling the voice inside my head that urges me to drink three pints of beer before i go into work to fuck right off…
It really does depend on the drugs, and the person. Most doctors hit you hard with a heavy dose, but there are some that will go for the least invasive drug (sodium valproate for example) and ween up to a therapeutic dose slowly over time. Ideally, the patient doesnt really notice the effect at all, but they get respite from the extreme lows, and a saftey net for the extreme highs.
Anyway. Blah blah eurorack bonfire edit samples on a tracker blah blah synths
Yeah, the one time I went to see a doctor about it, I walked in the room and motherfucker has a seroxat calendar, seroxat stationary, probably a seroxat tattoo on his inner thigh.
Offered me some seroxat before I’d even finished describing my problem.
When I politely declined his offer, he sent me to see a man in a tank top who had clearly not fully understood Freud and just wanted me to blame my mum for everything and draw Venn diagrams about feelings.
A lot of people get the help they need, some don’t. I didn’t like what I was offered, so we sorted it out ourselves. I’m lucky for two reasons; first, my problems are not so great, second, I have a supportive wife who knows when a hard flick in the balls is required.
Think I prefer it from the Eurorack stuff you were doing to be honest. I know that’s personal preference…. But it doesn’t sound like it was a bad move mate!
