I’ve broken… already…. Ish. I still have time to repent, but it has showed me how hard this will be… here’s what happened-
I’ve committed to this thread this year and decided to start off by also committing to Jamuary. I’ve been doing well so far releasing a video a day and spending more time creating than gear browsing… until the last few days… my two kids (both under 7) contracted covid, both are absolutely fine, but means we are all stuck in the house-so less time to play my instruments and more time on the phone scrolling killing time- Always dangerous.
I also listened back to all my Jamuary posts and started the self loathing-I promised myself I wouldn’t as it was about the commitment, the creative process and learning gear - not the quality of the output, but listening back much sounded to ‘same-y’ and uninspired.
Now the reason for the above not being ‘great’ is clearly the skill of the human involved coupled with short time/one take nature of the things I am recording-that was the whole point of the challenge - to get lots done rather than spend a month playing the same 4 bar loop on my own in my room. I am actually really happy with what I have done… but day 25 was tough and suddenly there was the digitone….
Firstly I watched videos, read reviews, decided that a 4 voice multitimbral FM synth was EXACTLY what I needed to freshen up my approach.
Secondly I worked out what I could sell if I got it and decided I’d be finically BETTER off by buying it (a terrible GAS trick that)
Then I remembered this thread… but - and this shows what an insidious little beast GAS is - I used this very thread to support the purchase!!!
I told myself that everyone here has far more stuff than me, so it was easier to commit, and besides it’s an Elektron forum and pretty much everyone has at least something by the company-I’ve committee to NGNY without owning any of their products-surely that can’t be right and in fact I need to change that immediately just to get on a level footing in the challenge…
Purchase made - one Digitone…
Oh… immediate guilt/realisation that the Digitone is going to do nothing for me-sure it will make the next 5 jamuary jams more fun. And will sound fresh and new for a bit-but within a month I’ll fall into the same old issue I always have - using the same few presets/sounds and the same few sequencer tricks and it will be like all the gear I already have.
I’ve already emailed the retailer to cancel the order and will call today to ensure. If I can’t get through and it’s delivered I’ll return it.
This is going to be a hard year though.