Hi NYNG boys & girls,
Yessss, another “I’m gonna get rid of everything announcement”. First, I was planning to make a thread out of like most of us do on the forum, but as this is kind of where it all started I figured I’d post it here. It’s also the only thread I check now and again.
So why? Well, I had these urges for a while now in the last couple of years. I’ve had some big ol’ sell everything and rebuild from the ground up moments. I like big bold transitions. This time around is different though, I’ve noticed how much energy I’ve spent working on my setup the last couple of years, especially intense during my euro endeavors. For me NGNY, is to let it all flow and not worry about my setup and the “next step”. However, in 2021, I haven’t actually bought a lot of things either, making me realize that this month in January I doesn’t feel much different. It’s not a terrible feeling, im not depressed but it still costs energy, mentally. And I want to invest that energy elsewhere.
At the moment I’m at a place in my life where things are changing, and they are changing FAST and in a big way. Due to these beautiful changes, money is slow atm. I want to let go of all things dragging me down and sadly I feel music is one of those things, if not the biggest. Because I have a few thousand worth of gear the voice in my head is reasonable and says, “You haven’t touched it in months so selling it is the way to go”.
I’ve come to see that I still have some passion for music and making music, and its not a I hate it and can’t make anything sound good situation. It’s more a conscious loving (temporary) breakup that will benefit both of us is the long run. I remember my first years producing, it was a blast! But in the last couple of years, I feel like I’m living in the shadows of the dreams I once had. My first vinyl was pretty successful but I’ve never been able to catch that amount of excitement and traction in years. And that’s fine, It’s a hobby, it’s always been a hobby and I’ve always said I’d finish uni over playing gigs and pressing records. It’s simply not worth the effort and money. If I want to make music I’m perfectly happy with ableton and push2, no need for big pricey hardware and FX.
So with that said, I’m going to cancel my avalon pre order (if I can reach Brian lol), sell everything but my MD, Push2, soundcard and headphones. Even my speakers are going out the door. I hope that creatively I’ll find a new spark, reconnect with my drawing and have more space for my writing. At the end of the day it’s just stuff right? (except my MDUW, that was my first synth, we go way back <3)
The need for change is so big, I’m probably going to sell/donate all my clothes too and get some new decent ones, go abroad for a few months and start building a business from the new found space.
Who knows I’ll change my mind but atm this feel like the right step forward! End of an era somehow!! And at the same time I know that taking a real hard break will shed new light on my relationship with making music.
Anyway, I thought you guys would be interested, if not, thanks for letting me vent <3
